Thursday, October 29, 2009

Mmmmmm

12:12 PM

the story of my life........ literally!

i think i should seriously consider locking my blog. my chatbox is being invaded by aliens!!!! ROAR.

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Updates

1:04 PM

The final week before exams is officially upon me. And to say I am prepared would be such an exaggerated lie that I'd prefer to just not go there. Akash is driving us to Tamaki today where a deserted campus lies in the middle of foliage so we can get some quiet study done. Which also means I have to get ready in one hour!

Finished my last assignment of the semester during the weekend and I can't believe how freaking long it took! I was supposed to finish it LAST weekend. But me being the perfectionist (which I hate!) went and read this entire mountain of journals to fully understand the concept of psychoanalytic desire and capitalism from Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari's points' of view. There is sadly, no space for perfectionism in uni. It's all about the science of balance. Spend too long on one assignment, and you lose out somewhere else, whether it's study or lecture or fun, the decision is ultimately yours. What I have come to realize is uni is almost too savage when it comes to time. It's nowhere close to a conducive place for people like me who are meticulous about detail. I'm still learning how to substitute detail and precision with speed. But I have never been good at that. To produce quality, I have always been someone to take time. It's challenging that way. And a challenge, despite my constant complains, is something that I have always loved. So bring it on finals. Time to rip you apart!

Friday night was our UMSA old/new committee appreciation dinner at Turkish Cafe in Newmarket. Pretty much a success. It marked the ultimate final event for the old committee which time and time again, I have said, that I will miss to death. KS made good souvenir booklets and everyone wrote nice stuff about each other in them. I still can't help glimpsing through mine. I love such things! SO simple yet so meaningful. And the food. OMYLORD. best food I have had in WEEKS! Jie Huei, Allan, Ati and I shared three dishes and I just couldn't help stuffing me face. Turkish food is the bombinos!

Saturday night was Vim's surprise 21st birthday party that Allan planned and executed with the assistance of myself and the rest. Got him a cake and then we waited in the apartment while they got back from grocery shopping and yelled "SURPRISE!!!!". Can die laughing! coz Vim was so shocked that the first thing he did was run out of the apartment. Good times! Been having more of my fair share. We played mafia, a game that I am pretty good at as I have come to realize. hehe. And then there was talking and laughing til the break of dawn. If it weren't for these people, my life would be lacklustre.


In other areas, my life has been consumed by Akash. I am getting used to the idea of spending so much time with one person. And what a twist too. Coz for the longest time, i have done things all by myself here in Auckland. Now I have someone calling me everyday to ask me if I've eaten and what I did and to tell me that he loves me. And to take silly pictures with me and mock me and my most favorite of all time - hug me! Gratitude comes in abundance! I have been driven around more in the past month than in my whole stay in Auckland. And for the very first time, I actually visited a temple (mummy will be haps!)... Thing with him is when he wants to take me somewhere or pay for something or do something for me, he doesn't let me say no. I guess that's what I need to getting used to. Somebody being so nice and not having ulterior motives. It shouldn't be so hard to get used to. Alrighty, I better sign off here coz QT pie's driving over in a bit.

Love yous! and see yous in Malaysia sooooooooon. One month! too soon.

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Monday, October 19, 2009

Happy

2:52 AM


It should be illegal to be this happy. It feels scary to feel this safe. Perfection is overrated. It makes me wonder when the antagonist will jump out from it's hiding and bring with it a ruckus. Right now, I feel like a gigantic hypocrite. For doing all those things that couples do that I used to cringe at. I feel like a hypocrite for saying that trust comes at a hefty price. It used to.

I guess happiness really does await all of us. The big of us, the small of us... All you have to do it is wait. And seek. And never give up. This has to some extent renewed my spiritual faith. Eversince speaking to mumzo, I have been forced by the bf to take off two minutes everyday to pray =O. Hardly feels like an effort.

All that's on my mind right now is the finals. And this one last assignment that's sucking the life outta me.

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Sunday, October 11, 2009

Puurrrrfect Day

12:35 PM


Weather was super nice the whole of yesterday. It's just too bad that had to be stuck in my room completing my 201 report. Glad to say I have that off my list for now. But I had to skip the BFM OhanaMii gathering at the domain just to complete the entire thing. Bummed out coz I couldn't go but I suppose at times like these priorities have to be set apart from leisure.... Whatever the case, I forced Melitta and Jess to go for a walk with me at the domain later that evening coz too much cooping up was just plain unhealthy. Especially in such nice weather. There was this group of people playing some awesome drum beats in the middle of nowhere. Honestly, we all wanted to break out into a bongo dance. But common decency stopped us from doing so.


Spring's been acting up a lot. Sometimes it's super nice and sunny. Other times it gets colder than winter!


The museum at the domain. I jog this path whenever it's not getting cold. Jogging in the domain is more therapeutic than treadmills. But in the winter, the pressure builds up in my ears and it hurts. Which offsets the therapy.


getting off the canon after the picture below was taken.


She's seemingly looking far and wide into my arse.


Front of the museum.I wonder why we never posed here before.


Later at night, Kailas, Mel and I went to the Divali Mela celebration at the viaduct. There were SO many stalls selling food and clothes and bangles and bindi and henna and MORE foood. And you didn't even have to walk, it was so crowded that the crowd pushed you into motion. Never have I been surrounded by so many Indians in my life! Even more than dodgy places in Malaysia. Except, these people weren't that much dodgy. Everyone just minding their own business which is exaclty how I liked it. Met up with cute stuff and his friends there. O man. I adore his friends. They actually make an effort to try and get me to feel comfortable around them. Always asking if I'm alright or hungry and trying to make conversation. Honestly, the best ever! Thank you Shanika, Bharat, Dhara, Sukhy, Purdy, Priya, and everyone else who was there and don't read my blog.... And I'm glad my friends adore cute stuff just as well.


He's good with them. Having coffee after the three of us split samosas and chappatis at the stalls.


And then there were the fireworks. So niiiice! they illuminated the sky and cute stuff and I got back to the viaduct just in time to see them!


Was awesome watching the fireworks in the arms of another. Coz as you would've guessed, I have never had such pleasure. Ahhhh. happay happay happayyyyyy!

Ok man. I HAVE to stop blogging! What is this?!?!?

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Saturday, October 10, 2009

Summore?!?!

12:21 PM

It's amazing how news spreads like wild fire. Just a day after I told Akash my final verdict, people already knew that we were giving this a shot. I suppose it was my fault for putting up pictures on my blog a tad too quickly. What was I thinking yo? The World Wide Web! LOL. But then again, my blog has always been faithfully visited by my nearest and dearest in Malaysia, so to leave them out of such significant news on my part would be just not fair. After all, I already fail at keeping in touch pretty badly....

Anyway, I can't help myself. My hands almost itch to upload more pictures. And I think I am bound to find it a bigger feat as time goes by, coz unlike most guys, he loves taking pictures as much as I do!!!! What do u get when u put two camwhores in a pod? - one VERY exhausted camera!

Nothing feels different though. Apart from the fact that I'm happy

and I can finally walk down a street with my hand clasped in that of another and not feel weird/awkward/

guilty. Everything else remains pretty much the same. I still have assignments due. The trepid instincts to study still hypnotizes my conscience more often than not with only three weeks left for finals!

O gosh. How I long for more free time. But so does everyone. There is never enough time in the world to go around....

Just a matter of time before my head gets displaced from the clouds (I wish it wouldn't!!!). Reality has somewhat begun to settle. Until then, I just urge that you be patient with the whims and fancies that unfold within this blog.

Just had to put that one up coz he looks adorable! -------------->(he's bending down n i m tiptoeing!!!!)
I made him give me the lyrics of the song he wrote me and I'm putting it up here coz I think it's awfully cuuuuute! Laugh at my expense. Really. Heh.

From Me to You <3 - Akash Jani

There is this girl I like,
She studies Psych,
When I saw you the first time,
I thought you were the sunshine,
I thought I'd come say hi,
But the words wouldn't come out right,
I knew that I fell for you,
But there was nothing much I could do.

When I see in those pretty eyes,
I see a girl who's oh-so-nice,
I was always scared to tell you,
How much I thought of you.

Everytime I'm with you,
The world looks so beautiful too,
Now as the days go by,
I think of you day and night,
I know I wanna see you everytime,
And one day I will make you mine. (x2)

hahahaha! cuuuuuute! Ok. On to report now. Thank you for all the comments for the past post! Much appreciated!

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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Is there an 'US' now?

3:03 AM



Been keeping this secret for way too long. Guess I just wanted to know that everything was right. And now that I have no other reason to push it away because he gives me no reason to, I think it's fair to give this a shot.



"so really. why do you care so much, I've lived this way all my life, I'm used to not having anybody around to care"

"I don't HAVE to care. I just want to. Because you're you"

I'm just this love sick child right now. Give me some allowance to let my head float within the clouds. I've not given him the final verdict yet. But he makes me happy. I think this one's here to stayyyyyy.

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Saturday, October 3, 2009

the Aww factor

5:27 AM


What is wrong with me?

Today was probably one of THE best days ever. I am as of now, officially the secretary of UMSA 2010 which means my campaign was effective and my presentation went smoothly. Thanks to everyone who came for the Annual General Meeting to vote. Big twist in the Top 4 results with Jack making it as the treasurer but I did not have as much of a problem with it as Jie Huei did. Hopefully, everything works out well and we will all be able to sort out our differences in order to maintain peace in the club.

But the real reason for it being one of the best was coz I'd never experienced such immaculate romance all at one go. I got a rose today. A single red rose (cue picture) in the sweetest way possible. It was all so unexpected. How I got picked up coz it was raining bullock carts, and then serenaded with a song written just for me in slow strums of a guitar in the background. It's hard to remain discrete about these things. Especially if it's a stare-in-your-face sort of romance that's either dead or overrated in this modern era.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just always never too sure. Always doubting. Unable to come up with answers. Well. All i will say is the past four weeks have been one helluva adventure. Let's just hope this one sticks around for the aftermath.

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