Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Lucky. Or not?

5:42 AM

Dear people who still read my blog. Fact is. I have been blogging in absentia. In my head. My head goes furious with thoughts but my fingers sometimes refuses to budge. I think starting work has actually exercised my fingers. Made it wiggle a bit if you will. So every time my thoughts go furious from now on I will blog. For the sake of my love for writing. Which I once claimed to have. I believe I am not fit for the title of a lovely writer any more. I've grown lazy.

On to more recent happenings. If you haven't already heard, I am now interning with Louis Vuitton. Every morning, I am propelled (literally) by a throng of people in some nook of an LRT which transports me right smack in the middle of KL - KLCC. And from there I take a nice long refreshing (zero sarcasm here) walk to Pavilion and from there I cross over to the dainty Starhill building, which feels like a floating heaven compared to the ferocious bustling streets surrounding it.


Ah. This is it. Pretty no?

Adorable glowing dome? Let me stop you there. Before I started interning with LV in the public relations department, I had never set foot into an LV store in my entire life. Neither did I know much about the brand. There was just something about the guards that stood at the entrance and my mediocre financial situation that scared me away from even the thought of exploring what was within. At present, I have still never set foot into an LV store (although that might change soon), but I certainly know SO much more about a brand I have learnt to respect.

It's been two weeks. And in the span of two weeks, I feel like I have endured so much already. My colleagues are incredible. Respectable for their status and yet very humble. Especially my boss who exudes class and appears to be the perfect role model. My fellow intern who is present at the moment to hand over her job to me is a girl with such a positive attitude that upon meeting her I was afraid that what I had to contribute wouldn't have been able to measure up to what she had contributed to the company during her tenure there. The environment seems like the perfect working environment.

With all that said, you would think I am at a pretty awesome position in life right now yes? Thing about me is, I can never be too grateful. I always believe that something petty is about to rain on my parade. Something waiting to jump out at me and go "BOOYAH" which leaves me in a disconnected, discontented position. I hate to admit it but sometimes negativity takes over my mentality. I'm always thinking about the things that could go wrong instead of things that can actually go right or went right.

Fact is. There are a lot of things that went right with work. Some things that went wrong. But I think the best thing yet was my decision to work. Coz, for once, and let me be positive this time, I feel like this job will actually help me grow. Coz as it is, it has made me venture beyond my comfort zone. It made me, somewhat, quit acting like a prima donna and resort to public transport. It's shown me that just by starting somewhere, anywhere, some very spectacular things can be achieved. It's made me pride myself that such great responsibility has been thrust upon my shoulders. It has shown me that sometimes you just need to enjoy your own company rather than that of any other.

Yes. The much harder, greater challenges have yet to come knocking. But just as what the year of the Golden Rabbit has in store for me - a year full of challenges, all I can do now, ready or not, is to be prepared to take a year of challenges, discoveries and revelations by the horns. If anything at all, at least I can be rest assured that by the end of the year I will emerge a stronger person than the one that mirrors me at the moment. This job is perhaps only the first step.

As 2011 begins to unveil itself, I can safely say, that unlike any other year, this year I only have ONE resolution.

patience - to watch and wait and learn.

Til next time....