Bridging Fantasy & Reality

My life of late has been defined by more than a fair share of change. Just when one thing starts slipping into status quo another change comes whooping in to mash and jiggle it up a little, disorientating yours truly. Resistance is probably the only thing I have been familiar with all this while. Whenever there's a change, there is this immediate compulsion to groan and moan injustice. To the point where I am convinced that the non existent injustice reigns supreme and all negativity bursts through like a cracked dam failing to hold back water. So my goal for the rest of the year is to embrace change. It's never too late to slip in another resolution albeit the high speed at which the year seems to be zooming past at.

My life as a business consultant in Groupon has been a series of constant changes. There are some days that suck beyond words. Those days have taught me some of the most valuable lessons. There were days when I was confused and puzzled as to what my main objectives were. Those were the days that got me to question my priorities. There were days that brimmed with rejection which led me to search for an inkling of hope. And then there were some days when I lost good friends who chose to develop their careers elsewhere, those were the days when I reached out and tried to seek comfort in others which ultimately brought me closer to new people. There were days when I lost my way around town and thought I'd never find a way back again. Those were the days I discovered new routes and shortcuts to avoid traffic congestions in the future.

And then, there were the days when I practically jumped out of bed with the excitement of meeting new people reverberating in my body. Days where I laughed so hard I thought I could cry. Days when the people I went out to meet presented me with more opportunities and inspired me altogether. Days when the tenacity and willingness to help of my fellow colleagues really touched my heart. Days when the value of my commission surpassed my salary. Days when I confronted my fear of standing in front of a crowd to speak what was in my mind. Days that I did not resist changes and felt the goodness that came out of it.

What an enriching experience it has been. An exploration at its very best. And despite the fear that I have of falling flat on my face some day along the road, I am glad that I have learnt that change is not such a bad thing after all once we start embracing it and stop resisting it. I graduated as a permanent employee at Groupon on Monday and it was certainly a milestone for me in terms of achievements in my life. Simply because it was a challenge at the very least which made me leave my comfort zone and explore something that I never thought I'd end up liking.

I owe this blog one too many entries.