Oh, the Guilt
6:49 AM
"We are left with a choice. Either let the guilt throw you back into the behavior that got you into trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt and do your best to move on." -Grey's Anatomy, season 3
Okayyy, i think i'm guilty of signing up for everything too fast, too soon.... Now instead of working as planned, this is clashing with that and that has just trashed this and soon this is gonna screw that up and then all i'll be left with is mush. I think i'm in for a burn out........ pppbhhhtttttttt....
Went out with the girls today... I tried to load the pictures we took but it's taking ages...and i mean aGeSSSSSSSs... ANd right now, i don't have that kinda time... I have this to do and that and then that and that which reminds me of the other thing i've gotta do... Urgh! I think i just made myself sick.. Anywayz, it was sooooo SoOOOoOOOoOOO fun. Like being back in high school again, even if that meant being blur in the conversation most of the time coz no matter how hard i try to get em to speak English it (...the convo) always finds it's way back to mandarin.. Sigh...
This time around it was a mix.... And i didn't mind it at all... It gave me time to check out whenever i wanted to and i knew most of the contents of the conversation so selamba only la. We cam whored before the food came and after the food came and while shopping and during the ride home...... The camera is officially the new age cell phone. Talking and giggling and cam whoring and walking around, window shopping is the perfect aphrodisiac for the mood. It does wonders i tell you. Sent the girls home reluctantly coz E Ting had to leave for Gentings.. I know!! Again... Apparently some concert thingy majiggy.... Also had a close shave with a road collision... Ting's hyperactive thyroid-isme or something like that didn't help.....
Joanne called while i was shopping... So WiErD! I was ALL set on pickin up Mrs Teng's (NOT Yuen Yin!!!) call, requesting me to begin my duties as off Monday... Even planned to go shopping for formal attire and cover toe shoes (eugh! yucky duck duck) with Mabel... But just like that, the unpredictability caught me off guard and i spoke in my sweetest possible voice... Apparently, i got the Internship at YM and they're beginning this exciting new campaign... ANd at the hospital, Mrs Teng's team is beginning this new exciting campaign for obese children as well where they devise diet plans and exercise routines for the kids... And as selfish as this is going to sound *whhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiineeeeeeeeeeeee* i wanna be a part of bothhhhhhh!!!!!! Life is so unfair!
She also wanted to know if i was free on tues, wed and thurs to go to Terengganu as part of the campaign and i was like, OMG OMG i SoO have to go..... And right there, in the middle of the cosmetic aisle at Watson's i had a mini b**** freak. Dilemma! Dilemma! Grudgingly called mom who set me straight and told me exactly what to do. Man! What would i do without mom?!?? Thought she would retaliate in a feverish way at the mention of Terengganu but she was all cool... So i waited for Mrs Teng to call til about 6 and then i called to no avail so i decided to go on that trip.. Called Joanne and asked her if she needed more people and she was over the moon at the mere mention of assistance so made a few more calls and now Nirmal's comin toooooooo! Wheeeeeeeee! This rocks! Free stay, free ride and we get paid!!!!
Still don't know how i'm going to explain myself to Mrs Teng but mom came up with a sly plan so yea... Hee... Wtv it is, i HAVE to choose between hospital internship which pays 900 bucks per month and will look like a gold star on my CV, not to mention provide me with sound experience of working with friendly health care professionals OR the writing internship which will not pay as well and will see me through various writing assignments, and my favourite! Meeting people sessions...... Once again i'm left with the decision of choosing between the science or the arts. Security or risk. The safe choice that ignites my interest at a gradual pace or the risky choice that sets my passion ablaze..... Sheesh! Latter or former??? Helpppp!?
Ish, will try and upload pictures tomorrow... Am having sms marathon with JJ now..
And you! Yesh! YOU! The one who has been calling me like a maniac from just now. STOP! Coz i'm not answering it........ ppphhhhbbbtttttttt
*blink*
Okayyy, i think i'm guilty of signing up for everything too fast, too soon.... Now instead of working as planned, this is clashing with that and that has just trashed this and soon this is gonna screw that up and then all i'll be left with is mush. I think i'm in for a burn out........ pppbhhhtttttttt....
Went out with the girls today... I tried to load the pictures we took but it's taking ages...and i mean aGeSSSSSSSs... ANd right now, i don't have that kinda time... I have this to do and that and then that and that which reminds me of the other thing i've gotta do... Urgh! I think i just made myself sick.. Anywayz, it was sooooo SoOOOoOOOoOOO fun. Like being back in high school again, even if that meant being blur in the conversation most of the time coz no matter how hard i try to get em to speak English it (...the convo) always finds it's way back to mandarin.. Sigh...
This time around it was a mix.... And i didn't mind it at all... It gave me time to check out whenever i wanted to and i knew most of the contents of the conversation so selamba only la. We cam whored before the food came and after the food came and while shopping and during the ride home...... The camera is officially the new age cell phone. Talking and giggling and cam whoring and walking around, window shopping is the perfect aphrodisiac for the mood. It does wonders i tell you. Sent the girls home reluctantly coz E Ting had to leave for Gentings.. I know!! Again... Apparently some concert thingy majiggy.... Also had a close shave with a road collision... Ting's hyperactive thyroid-isme or something like that didn't help.....
Joanne called while i was shopping... So WiErD! I was ALL set on pickin up Mrs Teng's (NOT Yuen Yin!!!) call, requesting me to begin my duties as off Monday... Even planned to go shopping for formal attire and cover toe shoes (eugh! yucky duck duck) with Mabel... But just like that, the unpredictability caught me off guard and i spoke in my sweetest possible voice... Apparently, i got the Internship at YM and they're beginning this exciting new campaign... ANd at the hospital, Mrs Teng's team is beginning this new exciting campaign for obese children as well where they devise diet plans and exercise routines for the kids... And as selfish as this is going to sound *whhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiineeeeeeeeeeeee* i wanna be a part of bothhhhhhh!!!!!! Life is so unfair!
She also wanted to know if i was free on tues, wed and thurs to go to Terengganu as part of the campaign and i was like, OMG OMG i SoO have to go..... And right there, in the middle of the cosmetic aisle at Watson's i had a mini b**** freak. Dilemma! Dilemma! Grudgingly called mom who set me straight and told me exactly what to do. Man! What would i do without mom?!?? Thought she would retaliate in a feverish way at the mention of Terengganu but she was all cool... So i waited for Mrs Teng to call til about 6 and then i called to no avail so i decided to go on that trip.. Called Joanne and asked her if she needed more people and she was over the moon at the mere mention of assistance so made a few more calls and now Nirmal's comin toooooooo! Wheeeeeeeee! This rocks! Free stay, free ride and we get paid!!!!
Still don't know how i'm going to explain myself to Mrs Teng but mom came up with a sly plan so yea... Hee... Wtv it is, i HAVE to choose between hospital internship which pays 900 bucks per month and will look like a gold star on my CV, not to mention provide me with sound experience of working with friendly health care professionals OR the writing internship which will not pay as well and will see me through various writing assignments, and my favourite! Meeting people sessions...... Once again i'm left with the decision of choosing between the science or the arts. Security or risk. The safe choice that ignites my interest at a gradual pace or the risky choice that sets my passion ablaze..... Sheesh! Latter or former??? Helpppp!?
Ish, will try and upload pictures tomorrow... Am having sms marathon with JJ now..
And you! Yesh! YOU! The one who has been calling me like a maniac from just now. STOP! Coz i'm not answering it........ ppphhhhbbbtttttttt
*blink*
2 comments:
hahaha aiyo u ar!!!!!
dino u had so much on ur mind during our outing!!!!!!!!!!! @@
bt anw, it was reli fun 2day.
MIS U AD!!!!! :(
wonder who's the one who's calling you nonstop..pick it up and speak some mandarin into it...haha
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