Bridging Fantasy & Reality

tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow......

neglected. one way to describe this blog of mine within all the 'tomorrows'. I think the reason I have been putting off writing is coz confrontation is scary. Blogging is a face off with reality. Makes you think about what happens in your days and months before you leave your little notes down for people to read and perhaps judge (or perhaps not)... The last few months have been pretty scary for me. Scary to the point that I felt like all four walls were caving down on me, driving me nauseously into a state of depression.. crying seemed more like eating, something i just had to do to get by and eating was more like piecing a jigsaw puzzle together, putting the right ingredients into a mindful ten minutes so that an uncomfortable feeling did not ride up my rectum the next morning.

I have to admit that the days leading up to surgery (performed on the abscess that developed from a cured fissure) was scarier than the surgery itself. Exam stress exacerbated even an inkling of anxiety. I was sitting for my third paper when i found that the curiosity of what might be ate away at my nerves and turned my focus away from studies. Antibiotics were making me tired to walk what more to do anything else. I'm glad that all that has passed right now. What remains is a mild bout of flatulence from the lactulose that I've had to take and a fading throbbing pain in my rectum. I'm not sure if anyone can relate to me at this point. But you don't have to. Just like every other story that we read as kids up until now, we see the characters in tumultuous episode after episode and at the end, when the dust settles, there is a moral, an anecdote if you like. It was pretty easy for me to take things for granted living abroad. When you can only really rely on yourself to take care of yourself and feel and interpret every little pain by yourself.... If you feel something is wrong, go to the doctor. Don't put it off. I was pretty lucky that I was urged to go to one and a further google article just scared the living daylights out of me. But as I was saying, intuition is pretty vital everything else comes second to good health.

Worked for Incredible Science at uni two days ago. I expected to have the most boring time of my life so clearly, I was only in it for the money. But every single aspect of the day took me by surprise... from the awful morning weather to the people and my job. I was assigned to be the photographers assistant throughout the day. Godfrey (the photographer) greeted me cheerfully when we were introduced at the start but I still held the stereotyped that he was yet another middle aged kiwi man who I would have communication problems with several times during the span of the day. Boy was I wrong. Our work chemistry was incredible.... Unlike the other student workers who were destined to usher and open doors or sit at booths, I was given the opportunity to take pictures (even though i wasn't meant to), have coffee and a nice chat with Godfrey and walk around the university and watch almost every other show that was held. I think I even had the better job compared to Akash who was getting paid more for being the packdown manager and student manager overall, technically he was my boss for the day. At the end of the day, and this might seem a little peculiar as it did to me, Godfrey sat me down and he told me that he saw a rather inspirational future for me, where I would stand in front of 500 odd people with a talent, but he said first there would be much despair in my life. He also said that my eyes, were full of love (when i told sukhi this, she said all she saw was smears of eyeliner.... LOL) and it was pretty tell all, but he did guess that Akash and I were a couple... I think I'd remember Godfrey, the devout Christian photographer and the funny conversations we had for a long time.

So now, on to the fun stuff that's been happening this winter break....

1. Celebrated Shani's bday at Monsoon Poon last last Friday. I thought the food was yum and the cake was even yummier but the rest didn't think so. Went clubbing after that at Carpark which i would deem better than most other clubs here...



2. I wore a saree for the very first time ever.... this was at Shanika's second 21st bday party which she had at her place. her sister let me use her saree and her mother assisted with tying the saree. Bright blue isn't really my colour, but oh well....

3. And finally, I decided that I could do with a new hairstyle yesterday. So i've chopped my tresses and cut a fringe. And surprisingly, I don't seem to miss all that hair....

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