Monday, December 8, 2008

A Proposition?

7:57 AM

I was thinking of putting BridgingFantasy&Reality to sleep. I haven't decided whether it should be "for good" or "just for now" yet. Coz. Seriously, when you come to think of it, I suppose it's just lost it's function. I don't think I will ever lose my obsession with writing, albeit, loads of crapish nonsensical whimsical stuff at times. But I suddenly have this intense urge to exist anonymously in the blogosphere. My freedom of expression via this medium has become severely limited. Now days, I seem to be sitting down and actually thinking: what the hell am I supposed to write this time? And I'm one of those people who believes that writing should just come naturally. Without thought. At first, I thought, fine, if I can't vent and channel my deepest darkest frustrations into seemingly substantial sentences then perhaps pictures will do the trick and not leave this space a barren land.

Uhm. One small issue. I seem to be under the constant curse of bad internet connection. My uni residence has promised better internet connection next year so I won't have to depend on Woosh any longer. Still. I think most of my pictures are up on facebook anyway... So now. Honestly. What is this space for?

Ok ok. I guess it does make sense to update it when I'm in NZ and not anywhere near the people I love and adore here. (altho in this age, we do have e mails AND there's the reveal all sisterhood blog for my closest n dearest) And I did make some close friends through this very space (Andrew for example who found me via my blog at first before we met in NZ) Even so, the contents is not really a true reflection of what I'm feeling. It's pretty much a brief interpretation of what's happening around me.... And now that I'm back here, i feel overwhelmingly uninspired to write anything at all =(....

Ughghhh.. dilemma dilemma. Help!!!

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