Decisions lurk everywhere....
3:36 AM
"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy, that's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know. If you're willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance, the view from the other side... is spectacular." -Greys Anatomy, season 1 -
I got an agent today. An agent who's gonna help me pursue my studies abroad, or at least try to. Finally. A reason for me to stop scrutinizing the websites for resourceful information! You can trust me to misconstrue the jargon any time. All I have to do now is drive down to her office in Subang, beside IDP and she'll help me with the application process. She didn't mention about charging for her services though. Come to think of it, it all sounds a bit too good to be true. But according to Adam-the-wise, agents make a profit from the participating university everytime a student applies, so there!
Apparently, tomorrow, she'll be getting a Letter/Statement of Good Conduct for me from Putrajaya. A letter that will declare me free from complicated criminal accusations. Before agreeing to go ahead with the offer though, she made sure to ask me, " So, you sure of picking New Zealand as your study destination then?". This was met with silence. *1 min* *2 mins* *3 mins* *4,...... "erm, I'm actually gonna sit for the SATs soon. Wanted to apply to the US but I think the admission is a bit too late. So I think New Zealand will be a good alternative option. Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla" (NOTE: the answer to that question was a simple yes or no). See how effectively I twist the urge to make a decision into a curveball so that I may not directly need to make one any longer? My fight or flight response kicked in. It happens whenever I stumble at a crossroad.
Her response met mine with some humour and a knowing tone. Aha. So I'm not the only one. In this, I find consolation. LOL. So I've printed out the documents and gotten everything ready for tomorrow. I'm going to apply. Coz if I don't, I might end up going no where. And NZ's a beautiful place to study. I've heard it time and time again. I'm applying for the scholarship as well. If I don't get that, and if my SAT results are satisfying, then I will move on to the States. See. I've got it all under control. what's that? Trying to convince myself??? Bollocks!
I finally decided to give mom a break by going to make myself new spectacles today. My power has increased by 25 in both eyes. Pretty predictable considering I don't wear my specks around very often. Anyway, I am totally in love with my choices. Yea, choices. Coz mom let me pick out a pair of sunnies as well. I got those black thick rimmed "nerdy" looking glasses to wear at home, or maybe not coz those are pretty in at the mo. And the sunnies were ok looking la, since my choices for powered sunnies are limited. Am totally in love with the rims though.
Watched Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna with my sister yesterday. KANK for short. I've not watched a hindi movie since my grandfather passed away so it was a little unusual for me at first. But Hindi movies always come in those GREAT love story packages. They're all cheery and funny at the beginning and really heart wrenching at the end. Predictable as they are, you gotta appreciate the effort that goes into making these LOTR time framed movies. It was so bloody long! Slightly more than 3 hours to be exact. And just the day before I watched Dhoom 2 which i personally prefered. Hotties alert! And the songs were a lot better. So, yea, I'm on a Hindi movie roll. Although I am gonna force myself to stop watching them for fear of becoming a bad influence on my sister. Me watching, refrains her from studying coz then she watches too. And we all know how excruciatingly near SPM is.
Been catching up on bio a lot. And math. Mostly for the SATs. And get this! I know lit terms so well now! Like Allegory, and Alliteration and Allusion and Parody and Parable and Fable and Aneuromorphism (erm, i think). No. The book's not in front of me. I managed to come up with a system. *Groans* You're right! I need to get a life! Can't wait fo fellowship night this sunday.
Future plans
SATs exam
Interact Quiz - helping out
Interact Conference - Group Discussion Leader
Rotaract Conference - Social Bee
I got an agent today. An agent who's gonna help me pursue my studies abroad, or at least try to. Finally. A reason for me to stop scrutinizing the websites for resourceful information! You can trust me to misconstrue the jargon any time. All I have to do now is drive down to her office in Subang, beside IDP and she'll help me with the application process. She didn't mention about charging for her services though. Come to think of it, it all sounds a bit too good to be true. But according to Adam-the-wise, agents make a profit from the participating university everytime a student applies, so there!
Apparently, tomorrow, she'll be getting a Letter/Statement of Good Conduct for me from Putrajaya. A letter that will declare me free from complicated criminal accusations. Before agreeing to go ahead with the offer though, she made sure to ask me, " So, you sure of picking New Zealand as your study destination then?". This was met with silence. *1 min* *2 mins* *3 mins* *4,...... "erm, I'm actually gonna sit for the SATs soon. Wanted to apply to the US but I think the admission is a bit too late. So I think New Zealand will be a good alternative option. Bla bla bla bla bla bla bla" (NOTE: the answer to that question was a simple yes or no). See how effectively I twist the urge to make a decision into a curveball so that I may not directly need to make one any longer? My fight or flight response kicked in. It happens whenever I stumble at a crossroad.
Her response met mine with some humour and a knowing tone. Aha. So I'm not the only one. In this, I find consolation. LOL. So I've printed out the documents and gotten everything ready for tomorrow. I'm going to apply. Coz if I don't, I might end up going no where. And NZ's a beautiful place to study. I've heard it time and time again. I'm applying for the scholarship as well. If I don't get that, and if my SAT results are satisfying, then I will move on to the States. See. I've got it all under control. what's that? Trying to convince myself??? Bollocks!
I finally decided to give mom a break by going to make myself new spectacles today. My power has increased by 25 in both eyes. Pretty predictable considering I don't wear my specks around very often. Anyway, I am totally in love with my choices. Yea, choices. Coz mom let me pick out a pair of sunnies as well. I got those black thick rimmed "nerdy" looking glasses to wear at home, or maybe not coz those are pretty in at the mo. And the sunnies were ok looking la, since my choices for powered sunnies are limited. Am totally in love with the rims though.
Watched Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna with my sister yesterday. KANK for short. I've not watched a hindi movie since my grandfather passed away so it was a little unusual for me at first. But Hindi movies always come in those GREAT love story packages. They're all cheery and funny at the beginning and really heart wrenching at the end. Predictable as they are, you gotta appreciate the effort that goes into making these LOTR time framed movies. It was so bloody long! Slightly more than 3 hours to be exact. And just the day before I watched Dhoom 2 which i personally prefered. Hotties alert! And the songs were a lot better. So, yea, I'm on a Hindi movie roll. Although I am gonna force myself to stop watching them for fear of becoming a bad influence on my sister. Me watching, refrains her from studying coz then she watches too. And we all know how excruciatingly near SPM is.
Been catching up on bio a lot. And math. Mostly for the SATs. And get this! I know lit terms so well now! Like Allegory, and Alliteration and Allusion and Parody and Parable and Fable and Aneuromorphism (erm, i think). No. The book's not in front of me. I managed to come up with a system. *Groans* You're right! I need to get a life! Can't wait fo fellowship night this sunday.
Future plans
SATs exam
Interact Quiz - helping out
Interact Conference - Group Discussion Leader
Rotaract Conference - Social Bee
2 comments:
Which agent did you go to? JM?
Last year I had some problems with them as they seldom deal with Swinburne students, I was the only one XD.
This year for my university application, I decided to do it myself but I did not get any response after 2 faxes and few emails (My fault for not settling everything before going back to msia). Anyway, I went back to JM, ask the girl to fax the application and ta-da~ They got themselves another client.
I think the university pays them according to how many ppl that went through, applied with them. So even I did everything myself and just ask them to fax the final application, they would be paid the same ammount of money compared to more complicated cases which requires counselling and stuff.
No matter what your decision is, you have my full support.
hey erin! thanks for the info!!! Really useful on my part. Will be dropping by there tomorrow to submit my final application. Will be applying to australia as well coz there's an edu fair at IDP tomorrow and apps are free so i don't lose anything by applying. Any how, if I do drop by Swinburne, It will be compulsary to meet up with you. xoxoxoxoxox
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