Monday, October 15, 2007

Unexpected

6:30 PM

In the past, I 've learnt to accept the unexpected. Little did I know that the unexpected could be fun. So now, I anticipate the unexpected.

Yesterday was rather unusual for me. Unusual in good way. I met up with Lee Hua just outside the Outback Steakhouse at Bangsar Village post lunch and together we waited for Amanda from RAC Gombak to come pick us up. It was decided the night before that yesterday was the day we were going to donate blood. Neither of us had done it before and the fear lurked somewhere within but I was itching to get it over with already. Amanda's cheery disposition surely helped. She was just so chatty and vibrant that when I reached the National Blood Bank in Jalan Tun Razak, I was just so eager to get that 450 ml of blood outta my system.

But. Much to my disappointment. And I stress much. Much. I am not eligible to become a blood donor. Ever. In my whole entire life as an earthling on this planet. I. Cannot. Donate. Blood. Period. This was pretty much how the doctor on duty put it. Except, she took it with a pinch of salt and added some petty humour into the whole thing while I watched her with a pained expression. No I do not have some fatal condition that is highly infectious. I do not have HIV. My blood cell count is almost excellent. I have excellent blood pressure. I am healthy. The only complication is I was a G6PD born baby. Which means that I have a condition, which does not allow me to donate blood. Coz, apparently, when my blood cells are exposed to the environment outside of my body, it self ruptures almost immediatly because of the sulphur content in the air. I've always known I was/am a G6PD. But for most of my life, this made me feel special. Now, it just makes me feel useless. To know that I can't help people in dire need even though I WANT to. Sigh. My blood is, well, useless to anyone other than me. And sulphur is my kryptonite. Someone, just go ahead and stuff my pillow with mothballs while I'm asleep.

So I felt like a complete loser. But it was good to watch Lee Hua and Calvin (from Gombak) donate blood. It felt like they were proceeding to the next level in life and I was there stuck at the bottom, unable to proceed. Anyway, thanks to Jamie and Amanda who reminded me that what I had was not my fault and that it was after all the good intention that mattered, I was fine. Lee Hua and Calvin felt dizzy after the blood donation. Their seats had to be inclined backwards to allow the blood to rush back to their heads. And at one point, when the nurse tried to stop Cal's blood flow, the blood kinda sprouted out. That was major scary-dom. I think he was very terrified by the whole scene. Just so you know, they're safe. And I invited the members of RAC Gombak for our fellowship night at Laundry at the Curve on Sunday. Coz Cal said I was pretty *giggles giddily*... but then I think he was just trying to cheer me up. LOL.

Afterwards, I drove to the YenShan's (Nishan+Yen Lee) residence to get my memory card and some of my files that he retrieved from my pendrive. Played with Speed (their doggy from SPCA) for a bit-she likes me! She adores jumping on me, and once, she practically engraved he nose in my crotch, which made me doubt her sexuality for a bit- while Nishan reprogrammed my pendrive. There was a trojan or some worm in one of my files and he had to open ALL my files in order to trace the corrupted one. It took 2 hours, thanks Nishan! It was getting dark then and they asked me to join them for dinner. So after we headed to the petrol station where Nishan once again volunteered to fill my tyres with air (it was making moaning, pained sounds on my way there which calls for concern), we drove over to my area for dinner.

I was thinking small chinese hawker stall but we ended up in TGIF, hmmm, maybe that fast cash op wasn't such a bad idea after all? I had some exquisite spaghetti meal, with emphasis on exquisite, considering I can still taste it in my mouth today. It was expensive. But I only paid a portion of the bill although i insisted to foot my share of the bill. What was better though, was the conversation we had over dinner. I think I took almost an hour to finish my food coz with each mouth of delish came more amusement. It was really good getting to know the both of them. They let me in on a lot. Their love story is similar to the ones you would normally read in fictional books or watch on a hollywood inspired dvd. Really. And they've been through so much. Gosh, I felt like a kid, in a good way la. I've been enlightened, that I'm an alcohol virgin and a relationship virgin. Not that I don't already know.

They came back to my place after dinner coz Yen Lee wanted the Grey's Anatomy dvds. We ended up playing cho tai tee along with my sister before they left to Karthik's place. Thrish and I watched 'Knocked Up' as soon as they left. The delivering part was.... uhm, interesting.

Before I go, I just wanna let you yes, you know that I am so jealous of you. So terribly envious. That you can donate blood! It is so unfair! So while I suffer the after effects of this huge blow, why don't you consider doing something with the gift that you have?

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Broke! Pokai!

11:52 PM

Someone once said; "It's the good girls who keep diaries. The bad girls never have the time. Me.... I just wanna live a life I'm gonna remember. Even if I don't write it down" -Voice over by Brooke, OTH Season 4

Why is it raining everyday? Kinda masks my mood. Gloomy. Correction, gloomy... until I start earning some cash.

I went to Mid Valley today and while buying my all time favorite (...altho most people fail to understand y) JJ's super sandwich, i discovered that I was 80 cents short of cash to pay for my sandwich. Yes. I did just say sandwich. And so i spent a good 3 minutes pretending to dig deeper into my purse in hopes of 80 cents miraculously appearing out of nowhere. And the dude behind the counter stared at me ,amused, while I buried my nails into the leather, scraping the nothingness that was there and turning crimson simultaneously. His taunting glare sunk in and the realization that I was going nowhere with the digging finally caught up and I sheepishly admited that I didn;t have enough to spare before racing to the nearest atm. That was after I promised him that i would be back with the money. It was little wonder that he trusted me coz he knew how much I loved those sandwiches and would be back someday if not today. Damn those sandwiches! Haven't they heard of franchises???

Bleh. The atm machine was another fuddle. Instead of selecting withdrawal, I selected fast cash and kaching kaching, RM 1000 was forced into my possession. DONOT SELECT FAST CASH!! I think I was in a shock for a while. That was the first time I held so much cash in my hand. Was a bit terrified as I stuffed the money into my purse. I suddenly had the urge to eye everyone in suspicion. They all seemed like hungry materialistic hyenas to me. So instead of stuffing my purse into my bag, I placed it into the plastic bag I was carrying. Do people snatch plastic bags??

For the record, I got home safely. After submitting my Starbucks work application. Yes. I decided to go against all odds and just try out for the position. AnD that was after I bombarded everyone with irritating messages regarding part time jobs on msn yesterday. Loads of suggestions came through. From telemarketing for 250 per day at Damansara Intan (which I am definitely applying for, I'd b crazy not to!) to selling irons at 60 per day minus commision. But I'm not allowed to let anyone know about the former, so DON'T ask!

Spoke to wai yi about tutoring at shelter for free. Was nice talking to her after so long, and the tutoring offer will be processed as soon as her parents return from Israel. They're there on a pilgrimage. Cool no?

Got my hair 'thinned' today. Actually, it was more like wash, condition, thinning, wash, blow dry. The woman made my hair so SO straight that I don't even look like me anymore. I don't like straight hair. It's a different story when my sister straightens it, coz she has a knack for making it look great. I think it's the product overload at the saloon that makes it look paper-y. Yuck.

The blood donating thing is definitely happening. *Smiley*

Friday, October 12, 2007

MishMashMush

3:02 AM

" Have you ever wondered what marks our timing? if one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives... for better, or worse." - OTH Season 4

Yay! I finally found the Princeton review Biology! There was one copy left on the shelf in Sunway Pyramid and I practically grabbed it as soon as I laid eyes on it. It was there all along and I went to all the supposedly 'more equipped' MPHs to get it. Pyramid's MPH has spiralled to the top of my list for now. It has a new look, if you don't already know. And so has the whole of Pyramid... err, well, phase 2. I didn't stick around much at phase 2, just rushed to the comforts of the familiar and I was only there for the book anyway. But I did get to view the very Arabically embellished passage way from pyramid ol skool to pyramid new skool thoroughly. Some of the shops were pretty neat, like the one selling mannequins made from scrap metal and others were just predictable. Analogy? Let's just say that pyramid finally realized that they simply had to acknowledge the fact that most of their patrons were middle Easterners.


Today was pretty awesome despite my flagging energy levels. Still feel kinda light headed for some reason, ugh. Anyhoo, I finally met up with Esther again after such a loooooong time. We Esther, Jing and I- had lunch at Charms cafe at the Curve. It was the first time all three of us were eating there (whoo! exploration!) and the food was pretty applaudible although the apple+cucumber juice at waffle world beat the hell outta the one at charms.


I'm having second thoughts about the whole Starbucks thing, thanks to Jing. One of his friends works there and apparently she had stories about kerahan tenaga. And the training is like a serious camp camp! Trainees have to put up in Berjaya Times Sq throughout the training period. I really don't mind committing to it, but I was leaning towards something more flexible which would give me time to study for the subject tests as well. Ish. Perhaps I should look elsewhere? But I've always wanted to work there *pout* And I got Jing and Esther all excited about the free drinks that they would get when they visited. LOL.


Been keeping up with blogs, unlike the busy days when I didn't have much time to *rolls eyes*. Not very healthy considering some people are living their dreams which drives me green with envy. Sigh. Florence, I wish I was there. Sigh. Here's a little glimpse of where she is and all the beauty that serenades her in her medical world.


Breathtaking! Just a few months ago, I didn't know Prague existed on the global map. Now, I worship it.

Gonna go nap for a bit. Been having more weird dreams lately. I bought a book called Concubine something. My tummy feels airy. Randomness. I know.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Refusing to Sit Still

11:55 PM

" Most of our lives is a series of images. They pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us at it happens. And we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever" - One Tree Hill, Season 4

You know what's the problem with having tasted even a meagre teaspoon of success? The addiction that comes with it. I find myself wishing that every single day in my life would be marked with some sorta victorious rapture. I guess I sorta lost appreciation of the placid states that comes with life every now and then. I can't stand it that my cell phone is suddenly inactive. And that I don't need to be somewhere all the time. Sigh. A bit siao right? You can trust me to always want something that I can't have.

Sent my application in for Auckland Uni yest. I was just pondering to myself, judging by the fact that I can't even sit still for a month, just imagine another year? Is US really worth all that time? And though I still have it on top of my list, my fingers were just itching to cross the border. So I applied, for a conjoint. Bachelor of Science with psych as my major and Bachelor of Arts with English as my major. And I got this confirmation e mail which tells me about a confirmation letter which will soon appear in my mailbox. Till then I await in silence.

Three new recruits are coming for the Rotaract meeting this sunday. A young business entrepreneur, Alex, one of the rotarians daughters' Deeviana and and old friend, Surin. Meanwhile, I'm contemplating donating blood. I can't sit anymore. Need to go do some thing productive. Am almost done with my room, gonna start off with my closet soon.

Itching to do something! Ugh!

Moments

6:53 AM

Leeza, Lee Hua and Me at Bangsar's Installation the previous sunday. Probably the grandest one I've attended. The theme was black and white, which reminded me of 'ivory and ebony' - high school prom.

Trick or Treat!!

5:01 AM


It came early this year. In a full steam, super fun form. We spent three weeks preparing for it. Some of us going sleepless nights. Others (particularly me) going completely cuckoo. I think I pretty much lost my nutters in those three weeks. Ask Nirmal and she'll tell you how wacko I was the last few days. I wouldn't be surprised if she claimed that I was screaming like a gargoyle at night while she was lying next to me. Oh yes, Nirm came to stay! It was her longest stay yet (3 days, 2 nights) and perhaps the best... I couldn't be more grateful that she was there to listen to me moan and groan, and drink starbucks with me while I went crazy from all the caffeine running through my veins, and stay up and talk to me when I wanted to vent and not wake me up to vent when I fell asleep. Thank you Nirmal! Can't wait to have you over again in November!

The night went terrific. It began with a few major glitches which caused me immense stress. Everyone could see that I was overworking myself for no reason. This was what all my energy was built up on for the past few weeks and me, not enjoying every second of it was a sin. Who cares if everything about it wasn't perfect right? Nothing's fun if it's perfect. There were people reminding me to have fun the entire night. PP Raja who was sitting across from me asked me to just relax at one point and only then did I realize that my stress was being portrayed outwardly. Apparently, the way I was sitting and looking around gave it off.... (hmmm, PP maybe you should consider being a body language expert???)

My main concern was that my guests would get bored and label the installation one of the worst. But boy, was I wrong. The installation turned out to be a blast. Everything about it was so perfect in the most imperfect way. It was fun like that. Hillarious that we screwed up the roll call which DRR Dinesh pointed out to me later night, and hillarious that the emcees were so themselves and did not put up a superficial act (Cass, no sweat! I loved u the way u were, contrary to what you believe...) and nothing about it was conventional. Nothing at all! It was so me!

There was the marriage proposal that ended up on a positive note - rotaractor proposing to his rotaractor girlfriend of three years. That was like a performance itself. And then, like no other installation, we had a magic show. And praises to Karthik and Nishan who worked on a short and sweet slide presentation in the last moments before the installation.

The best part of it all was, for the first time in a long long time, the limelight was on me. All the speeches were directed at me. Everyone was congratulating me and praising the committee for the absolutely one of a kind night. I got so many raving reviews that by the time the night ceased, I felt like I was on a natural high. So there, all the hard work and fuel consumption was absolutely worth it. I feel compelled to publicly thank my committee for their contribution and their comforting words. As you guys were walking towards the stage to get installed, there was this huge overwhelming sense of pride in me. I really genuinely felt like all of you had become my family. I really wish that Daniele, Thaya, Shalene, Sobana and Sunisha were there too. Coz they had been through all the trying times in Rotaract. They deserved to be there for the revival.

Anyway, so that's that about the 11th Anual Installation of the Rotaract Club of Bandar Sunway. You can say that now I am even more 'semangat' to get started on projects and the works. Oh, and I'm submitting my form for a job application at Starbucks tomorrow. Applying to work for three days per week with prior training at Berjaya Times Square, which means, in no time, I will be trapped in an lrt like a dead sardine with icky people groping me. What a way to put it. But yea, that's my perspective of public transport. The last time I took the LRT, I contracted chicken pox from an unknown source. So you can't blame me for being horrified.

Went in search for SAT II Biology today but I could not find it ANYWHERE! Went from Bangsar Village to One U to Ikano to Mid Valley til I felt a little woozy. Apparently, it's available in abundance in Kinokuniya at KLCC. Perhaps tomorrow?

The SAT reasoning test was by far the most excruciatingly exhausting test I had ever sat for in my life. It was 3 hours 45 minutes with 5 min toilet breaks after every 2 sections (there were 10 sections). By the 6th section, my neck felt like it was going to snap. And my forehead was cauterized with a permanent frown after the test. Fortunately, I managed to stay pretty alert throughout.

Sorry for the long hiatus I took from blogging. Will start updating more frequently now that I'm not bogged down with relentless calls and meetings.

Gotta run and continue revamping my room now. You would not believe the amount of cobwebs that can appear after three weeks (alright, it has been slightly more than 3 weeks). And my room is a "paradise" for my unpredictable sinus bouts. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

CURRENT STATUS

10:25 PM

BUSY! sorry, won't be blogging for a while until I find time to breathe again amidst this haywire that I'm wired in.....

THANK YOU Lee Hua for staying up til 5 something am to finish the program booklet.

THANK YOU Leeza for staying up til 6.30 am to finish the sashes!

THANK YOU Ben for going home to sleep at 1 am after "helping" us out and revealing your deepest obsession towards glue to us! *nah, I'm kidding! Thanks for throwing in ur 2 cents worth*

I wish this sounded more convincing, "can't wait to see you again today at 7 thirty"

Anyone good in resuscitation? I might need it soon....